my 3.5 month sojourn through a laptopless life has concluded

tw: discussions of suicide attempts

ocimum is back in business! after a long summer without a laptop i finally have a little guy again to do all my silly art and writings and extras on.

why, pray tell, did you go without a laptop for so long?

it wasn't an intentional sabbatical per se. it was the result of a chaotic suicide attempt where I was throwing out a lot of things that really mattered to me. my laptop, my old sketchbook, my old journal. i plan on making memorials to both of those books on ocimum soon. not sure exactly how i'll do it but i think i have some bits and pieces i can throw together.

but yeah, getting a laptop again marks a big return to normal for me, a sort of healing and proof of healing from the suicide attempt. it's not that getting the laptop is what healed me, but the fact that enough time has passed and that some of the damage can be undone. i have been missing ocimum so bad. and it's been legitimately difficult for me to get things done with school without having a laptop. that's another thing that's changed for me after the suicide attempt, is that i'm back in college. although i did skip my computer science class this morning in order to pick up my laptop and set it up this morning. but yeah, i made a real effort to get my life back going in a certain direction, i ended my gap year moment, i chose to reapply to college after the suicide attempt, and now I'm here doing the grind.

and what of the astrological significance of getting the laptop on today, 2023-09-15?

well well well it just so happens today is a new moon AND mercury in retrograde has ended! so naturally this would be the time that I would get my laptop returned to me in the grand scheme of things. always love seeing big events line up properly. i do plan on making more astrology analysis pages about my own life, it might get more personal but I think it'll teach me a lot and be a really good reference source for anyone looking for how to apply astrology to their own life.

that's about it! see ya on ocimum!